all the single ladies

I really need to get all of this off my chest so yeah, I'm gonna write down some thoughts about how I feel about relationships/marriage, etc.

Firstly, “We love, because He first loved us.” 1 John 4:19

Several people have brought it to my attention that I am young, [instert generally nice adjectives here], and VERY single. Please, what else is new. Also, the fact that all my feeds on social media have been blowing up with new "so and so is engaged/in a relationship with so and so" announcements is also another reminder that I am indeed, very single. Meh.

Mostly, I am single by choice. Yes, I have been single my entire life. All twenty years. (Mutual temporary infatuations do not count.) When I tell people that they look at me like I'm some kind of freaking martian because I don't have a kid or whatever yet. (Someone seriously said that to me. Just cause I'm hispanic don't mean I will give birth before 19 by default. Smh.) I am probably also single because all the wrong people hit on me. Anyways... I am probably single because I am just so freaking weird. True story. It's going to take one equally weird and brave soul to handle me. Being single, by the way, RULES and I am learning that every day man. Shoooo.

I am extremely old-fashioned when it comes to relationships. (DISCLAIMER: the following is what I think works for me. You do what you do bro.) And it may not be cool, but I know it'll pay off for sure...you know how everybody's obsessed on finding "the one"? People will go on date after date, on the hunt for that person. I am convinced that God has that ONE person for me, because He does and if I wait patiently....He will bring that person into my life at the right time. Which means I can avoid and not even worry about the trial and errors of dating because I know that I can trust my heavenly father with every single detail of my life. And not having to worry about me doing the work to actually find someone means I can actually worry on doing the work to become a better me, and more importantly a true daughter of the King, because whoever He has for me deserves nothing but the best, and vice versa for whoever He has for me. I'm a freaking princess and I refuse to settle. (Every girl is a princess y'all!!) This means I can take the time to get to know me and discover things and try new things because hey, if you don't even truly know yourself, how are you gonna get to know somebody else? This also means, I can take the time to dive deeper into who Christ is, from whom true love can only come from because He is love. (This is probably why so many relationships fail or don't reach full potential...if we fail to recognize and comprehend what true love is, and that it comes through Christ alone...we're in trouble.)

It makes me truly sad to see people put marriage and relationships on this pedestal, like, they feel they're gonna die of loneliness and a sense of failure if they don't have someone to cuddle with. PEOPLE: PLEASE STOP TREATING RELATIONSHIPS LIKE THE CROWN JEWEL OF YOUR EXISTENCE. Please, because guess what. News flash! It is possible to feel complete/happy/accomplished while being single! It's true. Again, being single RULES and there's nothing wrong with you if you are single. Or there might be...KIDDING...anyways.Think of all the things you should/need to do before you have someone texting you every 5 minutes. Like, travel alone, or buy something really pointless just because you want to, because once you're with someone you'll probs ask for their opinion on things. I enjoy being single because I do what I want to do without the opinions of someone. I can do me and self-discovery is pretty fun man.

It scares me how easy people say they "fall in love"....like that's such a terrifying thing. Like, it might just be me, but I am terrified of falling in love. Probably because I don't know what its like, but I will see lovesick people and I'm like oh God forbid I be like that. I don't know. I find it weird that people throw love around like it's nothing, like it's a hobby or something when it was meant to be so much more than that...

I will not even lie to you. If I'm honest, for the most part, single life is cool. However, on some days, I will see a happy couple walking through the mall or something and I'm just like *sniff* forever aloneeee *sniffle*. But I get over it. I used to have a fear of marriage because I saw so many broken ones...and I was like, if that's what you get when you get married then I don't want that, ever. God is working through that...because marriage is good if you do it right...right?

People have also asked me what I would like in this significant other. I want a traveler, a lover of music, a foodie, a dork, and most importantly, a friend. Some things are non-negotiable though: He must love Jesus with all of his heart and soul and everything in His life must show it. Yep.

I guess all in all...just take it a day at a time. Single peoeple: live your life, enjoy the moment, do not ever rush into anything. Everything has a time, a place, and a season. And as cliche as it is...true love waits. Nobody who waited for that person patiently made it to the altar and said...oh the wait wasn't worth it. Au contraire. The payoff is huge...cheat the process and you will cheapen the harvest...and I need to stop rambling.