w a n d e r l u s t.

I have been in so in my feels lately.

I have been a mood where I just want to hop in a van and drive until I hit the Pacific Ocean. I have been wanting to paint until I have no more paint to paint with. I have been wanting to watch so many movies in a row to the point where I would have to roll over because my butt would fall asleep. I have been wanting to just go far away for a weekend. I have been craving the waves crashing on my ankles. I have been longing to breathe fresh air from a mountain top. I have been wanting to sit in my church by myself and sing my lungs out. I've been missing sunrises and wanting to prolong sunsets. I have been wanting to write all the thoughts in my head (but can never find words when I want these thoughts to go elsewhere). I want to bake for no reason. I want it to rain really hard so I can go running in the rain. I want to lay in bed all day with my blankets, a good book, and a cup of coffee on a rainy day. I want to throw a barbeque for friends and entertain people and eat like kings for no reason. I want meet a stranger and become friends (everything is only a matter a time!). I want to lay on a blanket on a clear night and stare at the stars until I fall asleep. I want to go into an open field and set off fireworks. I want to go for walks in early summer and watch things come back to life. I want to do so many things. Routine is killing me.

I want to be a l i v e.